It's My Birthday!
I had a good month, I was using Oilatum (an anti-dandruff shampoo) to cleanse my face and a tiny dab of Diprobase to moisturise. This combination seemed to work and it didn't aggravate my skin. The first time I used it though, I was petrified that it would trigger another allergic reaction. Prior to this, I hadn't washed my face for weeks for fear of the cycle starting again. I did it though, and I now count it as a milestone in my recovery.
I had a new frock and I was ready to get out and have a drink or two! The location was perfect because it was outside. I had been living in an ice-box for the past few months because any type of heat seemed to make my face go red. I would literally avoid all warm places which severely inhibited me and stopped me from going out.
So, armed with a small bottle of vodka and my sisters in-tow, I let my hair down and danced the night away. Heaven knows what shapes I was pulling, I was just so happy to be outside and enjoying myself. Looking back, I can see that I was unwell still but every time I went out and interacted with people, it gave me the confidence to do the next thing, and the next. It was as if I was metaphorically building the blocks of my life back to support me. Doing the every-day things that I once took for granted were a struggle and I had to plan my escape-route each time. I knew however that each little step, each little brick, would eventually become something solid and strong - something that I had built, from the foundations, up.